This Is Your Risk

Mom,,
the real risk when you get a friendship with a popular girl will did some thing like this.

Mom,,
the first time i in senior high school, i was a tend to choose someone who will make me knew by everyone, but because of many many problem in my senior high school i decided to choose friends who can hide me from everyone and every problem.

Mom,,
but actually right now, i did a otherwise thing, a same thing what i did last time, huh. sometimes life is unpredictable right.

Mom,,
back to the risk which i said before. i didn't know why i often did the otherwise thing from i hope. like right know, i got a friendship, close friendship with a popular girl, where i try to stay away from this type, and i got my risk. beside im so comfort with my life like this, im forced to see my close friend (she is a friendly one) go away, do many interested thing, laughing with people, but i can not be just come into other side in her life. 

Mom,,
i didn't know why, that was making me so disturbed. because for me, friendship is a relation which must make me feel comfort, something binding. not easy for me to get a close relation with friend, so when i got that, i'll keep her just to be mine. so egoistic. but it's so burden for many people right. but, i knew what i did. when i did that for my friend, i will keep my self to do the same. but if it can not working in my life today, i'll go away for a second to forget that it ever happen in my life

Mom,,
girls word is so confused,,